Just Call Me Wednesday

I just bought my ticket to Italy. In two months I will be leaving for another world, the old world. Living for a year without many of the comforts of home, and certainly without the stress of day to day life.

Perhaps I will even change my name. My French friend's boyfriend calls me Wednesday, in French of course, because of my last name. Normally I hate "Adams Family" jokes, but I loved this. A change of scene, a change of name, and a quick change of life are all you need to remind you of who you once were before the stress of work, and money, and, well, life. I shall be Wednesday Adams, traveller extraordinaire, European aficionado, master of languages.

I have been thinking a lot lately about my dreams. I gave up on my dream to be an editor after I left college. I was so focused on getting back home, and being with my family, and actually making money, that I let that dream fall by the way side. Honestly though, even if I had decided to work around Texas as an assistant editor, I would have probably not liked it. I wish I could go to film school NOW. I was so insecure of my abilities as a film student in college and I hardly ever felt good about my work as a filmmaker. When someone brought to my attention that I had actually given up on my dream to edit films, I was shocked. My first reaction was 'No! That's not true. I didn't give up on my dream, I just left it on the bench for a while.' But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I left my dream on a bench fifty miles behind me. Perhaps I would have become famous, or even just more confident in my abilities as an Editor, or perhaps I would have hated making no money, and going nowhere. I do not want to give up on this dream. I want to make this work. I want to learn to speak Italian, French, German, and Russian. I want to have fun while I am learning and meet new people, and so what if I am not making much money, I have nice things that are waiting for me back home in my closet.

I have shaped up, now it is time to ship out.